Tuesday, May 15, 2018

Now we wait....


I can't believe I have not posted since January.  Time has flown and I have been SO busy planning and getting ready for our sweet Winry to get here.  Things are pretty much done!  Now...we wait.

Waiting is not something I am great at but it is something I think the Lord has really been helping me work on these past few years.  The real bummer is...now I have to wait from home, laying in bed.  At my appointment on Monday I was hopeful things would be progressing well and the doctor would say we could expect Winry any day.  She does feel that Winry could come at any time now...but she also said my blood pressure was too high and looking back at the charts, it has been slowly going up throughout my pregnancy.  So, bed rest it is.  It is one thing to "wait" and be busy...at least that way you have a way to distract yourself.  It is another thing to have to wait and not be able to get anything done or go anywhere to help the time pass.  I also have the added worry now... that if the bed rest does not help my blood pressure go down, it could affect Winry too.

That anxiety of something going wrong has never left.  It creeps in at the most random times and tries to consume me.  Thankfully with a lot of prayer, I typically don't go too far down those anxiety rabbit holes.  But, sometimes it is oh so tempting.  Especially now that I have plenty of time to do so.

Today I plan to make a schedule for myself so I actually feel productive and don't just binge watch tv shows for the next week. :)

So far I have had an easy pregnancy.  I never had much morning sickness.  I was nauseous for a while and have not been able to touch chicken since the very beginning of my pregnancy but never threw up.  I have had terrible heartburn and acid reflux from probably around the 5-6 month mark and my hips have been hurting while I sleep for what seems like FOREVER.  But, I know I am lucky.  Some women are miserable their entire pregnancy.

My favorite things about pregnancy would have to be feeling Winry move.  I have an anterior placenta so it took a while to feel really strong movements.  But, I love it.  I could just sit and watch her move around all day (I guess I could do that now if I wanted lol).  I also love my "bump".  I'll be honest, I feel more confident with my pregnant belly than I ever have without it.  I love how I look pregnant!  I am dreading to see what the aftermath of this "bump" will look like... but I am sure I won't care, at least for a little while.

I think my biggest worries at this point are if the dogs do ok with Winry, that we have don't everything we need (I am sure we do!), the pain of childbirth, and not knowing exactly when Winry will come.

But, I know everything will work out, I just need to have patience and WAIT.

I am thankful for all the love and support we have received throughout this pregnancy.  Everyone is already loving Winry so well!  She is one lucky little girl.  We had two wonderful baby showers.  One was done by my AMAZING coworkers and the other was done by my three WONDERFUL moms.  I am so thankful for all the support we have from friends and family.

Hopefully the next time I write will be AFTER sweet Winry is here!

Here is the picture from our previous sono.  She has the cutest chunky cheeks! Her head is on the right and arms/body on the left.

Romans 12:12
"Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer."

Psalm 55:22
"Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved."